The purity nazis

Disenrage is where I write thoughts on life and spirituality. This is the human perspective. If you’re looking for my unwoke work (the polar opposite of this), head over here.

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Tonight’s soundtrack:

Today, Shane Cashman posted a clip of himself on Alex Jones discussing how the culture destroys writing and art, making people afraid to say things that might be risky.

I replied to him that the purity nazis of the right contribute to this too.

Having had run-ins with them himself, he replied “That’s the truth.”

I fucking hate the conservative right for making me afraid to engage in spiritual discussions. I truly fucking hate them for it.

Spirituality was a huge part of my life for as long as I can remember, and I never had to be private about it until I had a so-called platform filled with conservative purity nazis. I used to have these types of conversations all the time, in the land before an obsessed group of stalkers followed everything I did to find moments they could twist out of context because they’re too ragingly stupid to understand the concepts being discussed.

There are few things that have brought me as much joy, provided me with the most security, or equipment me with the most powerful strength as my spiritual beliefs.

I never intended to develop this platform, and I certainly never intended to give up my connection with God or my ability to have discussions about the nature of the world for it.

I really feel like they tried to rob me of that.

Even when I tried to rebel against it, I was always afraid. What am I going to get hit with next for daring to engage in discussions that they dislike?

If you ever want to know what it’s like to get the shit kicked out of you on the world stage, try having discussions about spiritual beliefs that don’t align with Abrahamic belief systems around people who claim to be the most morally pure on the planet.

Try saying that you don’t think we ever really die, we just change forms, or that God loves everyone unconditionally, or that no one goes to hell because it’s a human-created myth, or that everything happens for a reason and the greatest tragedies in our lives can make us the person we were meant to be.

I had discussions like these without a care in the world for years…until I developed an audience from the conservative right.

The good Christians (and sometimes Jews). The moral. The pious. The purity nazis.

They are the most awful people on the planet.

I cannot begin to tell you how much I regret ever defending them, trying to tell people they really aren’t the monsters you think they are.

They made me afraid to be human, to have human discussions, display human emotions, ask questions about the nature of humanity and existence.

They seriously made me question if I was a good person.

Some of the most awful people in the world made me seriously question if I was a good person.

And, of course, as they were spending their time making my life a living hell and destroying the things that mean the most to me, I also wasn’t permitted to be upset about it.

I wasn’t permitted to be human.

I just switched the soundtrack to this:

Seriously, fuck these people.

Never make the mistake I made and let a mob of the most awful people in the world prevent you from engaging with the things you believe are beautiful.

I think it’s beautiful that God loves everyone unconditionally, including people like Hitler, who committed horrific acts. Unconditional means unconditionally, and we cannot fathom how powerful God’s love is.

If you don’t believe that God is so powerful that he is more than capable of unconditionally loving every single part of his creation, then maybe you’re the one who doesn’t really believe in God.

I believe that all of the pain and trauma in our lives has a purpose, making us the person we are meant to be. I refuse to believe that trauma that happens to us has no larger purpose, to teach us the lessons we must learn, and I don’t think there’s anything wrong with believing that.

I believe that everyone chooses everything in their lives, including when they die based on their spiritual path. They can change their minds - they have free will - but conscious human behavior is not remotely as possible a driver as our chosen spiritual journey and life has a way of kicking us back on path when we get off track.

And I don't believe hell is a real place, so how could anyone go there? Hate Hitler all you like but even he can’t go someplace that isn’t real.

In Conversations With God, Neale Donald Walsch wrote:

“Hitler went to heaven. When you understand this, you will understand God.”

And there are perspectives on Hitler, where he is, and what his soul might be experiencing that are less than hellfire and brimstone:

There was a time I was allowed to consider these ideas.

The conservative right made it impossible.

If I’m not allowed to consider the idea that traumatic shit is a part of life, that it happens for a reason as a part of a larger spiritual journey, that hell is a man-made device to control people, and that no matter what we do God still loves us unconditionally than you’re basically telling me I’m not allowed to think.

Why should the questions I grapple with be morally palatable to you?

If you don’t like them, then ignore them.

No one is forcing you to be here, reading this. Just go somewhere else. The internet is a big place.

These people are moral-fucking-busybodies that are no better than the karens of the left.

They’re moral-fucking-busybodies that forgot to read the parts of their bible about love, and kindness, and charity. They were too busy incorrectly interpreting the parts they believe tell them to hate the gays.

Wait until they find out that I don’t think porn should be outlawed, and that it can save marriages.

I can hear the REEEEEEEEEs from here.

I cannot believe I stifled myself for these people.

The people who would hold you to a purity standard to discuss ideas on the internet only prove they aren’t worth considering.

Let them smear away.

We’re discussing ideas here.