There's no good or bad.

Everything is neutral

Disenrage is where I write thoughts on life and spirituality. This is the human perspective. If you’re looking for my unwoke work (the polar opposite of this), head over here.

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Here’s what I’m listening to as I write this:

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One of the things which cause me to fail the online purity test is my belief that nothing is inherently good or inherently bad, everything has the meaning that we assign to it.

God damn, does that piss people off.

But does it piss them off because they know it’s wrong…or does it piss them off because they know it’s right?

How foolish would it be to believe that life is supposed to be perfect?

What would the point of life be if it was supposed to be perfect?

And alternatively, almost everyone can look back at their life in retrospect and acknowledge that some things that seemed bad at the time actually turned out to be one of the best things that ever happened because it pushed them in a direction they needed to go in.

You perceived it as bad at the time because that was the meaning that you assigned to it, not because it was objectively bad.

A person gets fired from their job…and goes on to get a better job making more money that they would never have applied to otherwise.

A person gets cheated on…only to end up meeting their future spouse right away after being pushed away from the relationship.

Some things some perceive as bad turn out to be good.

And of course, the reverse can be true.

Someone is in a high-powered corporate job where they are important and making a lot of money….their friends are all jealous, they’re able to provide their family with everything they need…but they hate it and feel trapped and wish they could be a full-time artist instead.

In that case, what most perceive as good turns out to be bad for the specific person involved based on what they want in life.

Or take perceptions of some sacred medicine (or what some people might call drugs).

I’m made to believe that the fact that I’ve done ayahuasca, mushrooms, and smoke weed makes me some sort of failure as a person. It’s as though these people who perceive the act so poorly have so little faith in God that they can’t imagine he would have put those things - all naturally occurring - here to help us. How can you believe in God and then believe that God makes mistakes?

I believe they’re here because God loves me and wants me to be happy.

Some of the most profound experiences in my life have been with the help of ayahuasca and mushrooms. How is that possible if they are so poisonous to me?

And that’s just it - these tools do result in profound experiences.

And for some people - even if they claim to believe in God - having those experiences would be terrifying. So, coming from a place of fear, they invented excuses to make it seem righteous to avoid it. They label it as bad, and if it’s bad for them, it must be bad for everyone else!

Except that it isn’t. Millions of people in the world have had these profound experiences connecting with God using these tools that he gave us.

What’s considered bad for some is considered good for others. What’s considered good for some is considered bad for others. And how dare you deign to know what someone else requires on their journey, or what’s best for them?

And here’s where I really piss people off: Some people want negative things to happen to them.

Children who are abused are more likely to be in abusive relationships as adults.

Women who have been in abusive relationships are more likely to end in a future abusive relationship.

Now, no one is arguing that someone would consciously wake up one day (especially as a child) and think “you know, I’d really like to be abused.” That is not what we are talking about here (although inevitably, someone will make the argument that it is because that’s how the internet works…there are people who believe that lying and smear campaigns are good things, and it’s a good look to engage in them. I disagree, but that doesn’t change their perspective, which they’re allowed to have).

What we’re talking about is someone unconsciously recreating patterns in their lives because that is the programming that exists in their brain. That means, on a subconscious level, they want those things.

Is it fucked up to think that a person might subconsciously desire to be abused? Sure. But that is the programming in their brain. These people aren’t just unlucky - there is a reason it’s a pattern. Perhaps their challenge in life is to break out of that pattern and learn that they are more worthy than that…and so denying them the opportunity to learn that lesson is actually rather cruel. You’re taking someone off of their path because you’re inserting your own human needs for their spiritual needs, and ultimately our spiritual needs will always win. We are spiritual beings having a human experience.

Life is about experience. No experience is inherently good or inherently bad. And if you can find a way to assign positive meaning to things that many people may perceive as negative, you will live a happier life.

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Here’s some visuals I really liked: